there are just so many things going through my head right now that i don't know what to think anymore. i mean i know what i'm thinking because i'm thinking it; i would just rather not be thinking any of it. it's really just a jumbled mass of unimportant crap that's become too important and it just won't shut up and go away. i wonder why. maybe its all my fault. surely getting your head-the things in your head-to shut up should be easier than this?