there isn't much to post about these last two days so i won't go into detail about anything. i walked a lot and i biked a lot and that's about it.

i just...feel so angry all the time. it's at the point where i get mad at the smallest things...and then i get mad at myself for getting so (stupidly) mad and because of all of those emotions swirling around in my head i get upset and start crying. (and then i get mad and upset at myself for allowing my emotions to take control and sinking lower and lower into this miserable little mess)

i wish there was some sort of switch in your head that could be flicked off whenever you want everything in there to just shut up and go away. it doesn't have to be permanent. i'm not sure i'd want it to be (although sometimes having all of those emotions you don't want to feel or thoughts you don't want to think or memories of everything you don't want to remember be gone forever does sound appealing). anything temporary would be fine. i just need a break from all of these things cluttering my mind and making me feel like i'm losing control over everything.